我站在黑暗的世界沉思 史蒂芬▪克莱恩 （美国）

浙江俞伟远

我站在黑暗的世界沉思
作者：史蒂芬▪克莱恩 （美国）   翻译：俞伟远


我站在黑暗的世界沉思，
不知道行走何方。
我瞧见急速的人流，
无休止倾泻，
充溢急切的面容，
这欲望的急流。
我对他们喊叫，
“你们去哪里？你们看到了什么？”
一千个声音朝着我喊。
一千个手指指着方向。
“看哪！看哪！那里！”

我对那里一无所知。
但是，瞧！遥远的天空有光闪烁
神圣，不可言喻——
一个涂染在阴影上的异象；
有时它的确是，
有时它又不是。
我犹豫。
那时从那条溪流
传来吼叫声，
急切焦虑：
“看哪！看哪！那里！”

我再次看，
跳跃，果断，
挣扎，恼怒
伸展紧握的手指，
坚硬的山坡撕裂着我肉体；
一条条路噬咬我双脚。
最后我又看了看。
遥远的天空没有了闪烁的光，
神圣，不可言喻；
阴影之上没有染上异象；
我的双眼为光而疼痛。
那时我绝望呼喊，
“我什么也没看到！哦，我去哪里？”
人群的急流再次转过众多的脸：
“看哪！看哪！那里！”

在我的灵魂失明之时
他们尖叫，
“傻瓜！傻瓜！傻瓜！”


I stood musing in a black world
by Stephen Crane

I stood musing in a black world,
Not knowing where to direct my feet.
And I saw the quick stream of men
Pouring ceaselessly,
Filled with eager faces,
A torrent of desire.
I called to them,
"Where do you go? What do you see?"
A thousand voices called to me.
A thousand fingers pointed.
"Look! look! There!"

I know not of it.
But, lo! In the far sky shone a radiance
Ineffable, divine --
A vision painted upon a pall;
And sometimes it was,
And sometimes it was not.
I hesitated.
Then from the stream
Came roaring voices,
Impatient:
"Look! look! There!"

So again I saw,
And leaped, unhesitant,
And struggled and fumed
With outspread clutching fingers.
The hard hills tore my flesh;
The ways bit my feet.
At last I looked again.
No radiance in the far sky,
Ineffable, divine;
No vision painted upon a pall;
And always my eyes ached for the light.
Then I cried in despair,
"I see nothing! Oh, where do I go?"
The torrent turned again its faces:
"Look! look! There!"

And at the blindness of my spirit
They screamed,
"Fool! fool! fool!"

This poem was published in 1905 in the volume The Black Rider & Other Lines.